None of the fathers had a better son

Last week i was in my village, known as Naurejpur in Jalaun (part of erstwhile Bundelkhand). This visit was my first visit to my home in 2010. Nothing is greater than the loving affection of mother, siblings and grand parents. Although in midst of infamous Indian summer with mercury playing with an healthy average of mid 40s, the serenity of village life has not lost its healing touch. Although i did not get enough chance to visit my farms and public buildings still the very thought of it is like nirvana. I always think to retire some day (10-15 years down the line) and to live life close to nature. Some times I think of starting a school and scholarship but become scared of my habit of frequent boredom. I never felt occupied in my entire life by a single type of work. But as they say some goals are so worthy its glorious even to fail.
                   Now i am back to Bangalore and to my job, and again become a part of millions of life making jobs tougher/messier (or simpler) to billions of people. To be very frank to my soul, i hate the entire corporate world, i hate money and the attachment but its difficult to prove whether i am not suffering from "Grass is greener on the other side syndrome". Last 18 months has made a traumatic impact on my life, personality, thoughts and some times i think that i have lost some part of my audacious nature. These thoughts have been lingering in me since the inauspicious early hours of 7th Dec 2008. Responsibility makes a person more humble and polite. Now i can feel the essence of the scene from "The Magnificent Seven" when Bronson tells that the Parents of those village kids are not coward but they feel responsibility towards their wives and children.

My father used to sing these lines ( from Ek Fool do Mali) when i was fledgling kid
Tujhe Sooraj Kahoon Ya Chanda,
Tujhe Deep Kahoon Ya Taara,
Mera Naam Karega Roshan,
Jag Mein Mera Raaj Dulaara

I don't know whether i can fulfill these lines but i will try to live up to them. Around 4-5 years back, one of my friends asked me "what do you want to have".
I replied him on the spot, i want to hear the the following line from my father before i die "None of the fathers had a better son". Unfortunately i could not die like Hector before the eyes of his father Priam.